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In just an hour we will say goodbye to my mom... my stomach is twisting and turning, my brain goes 200mph...
I still don't feel ready to say my final goodbye to mom, but it's time to give her body to the earth. I just hope she's not the botom of the stack because the general graves are stacked 4 high.. or deep.. depends how you look at it.
For the first time in at least 3 decades I feel weak, I'm not the grounded man I always am... I'm a mess.
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loss...
And I truly hope my next post will be more positive, I still have that new AM5 system to build which was on a hold. I had to send back the PCIe gen 5 SSD to save on costs.
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I am so sorry to hear your Mom's passing. Love, light and healing to you and your family.
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less then 48 hours to go before the funeral of my mom, it feels like an endless hill to climb. But I want it to be over, but also I don't want that moment to come. When my mom';s casket goes in the grave it's the last time I will see her...
I am in mourning, I am hurting, I feel like the ground opened up underneath my feet and am in an endless freefall.
It's the combination of both losing my dad and my mom in 143 days that pushed me over the edge to unstability and I'm not liking it.
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more normal soon, this is not who I am.. .I don't recognize myself anymore.
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My prayers and condelences are with you and family. I lost the both of mines as well...
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My mom died.. it was a battle she couldnt win..
She's with dad now
Oct 18th 1949 - June 1st 2025
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My deepest condolences to you and your family, Martin
May she rest in peace
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My mom been asleep for over 30 hours, she was getting a little restless because yea.. she can't take her painmeds. So they called in the doc and she's on morphine now. A low dosage repeated every 4 hours. If that's not enough she will get an increased dosage.
This pallitative period can last from minutes to even a couple of weeks, but she already was getting the death mask, so I would be surprised if she would survive the weekend.
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to stimuli since about 1pm just before the first dosage of morphine was given. She's already basicly gone.
The nursing staff is very attentive even a male nurse who was there yesterday came to work another shift today on his day off because of my mom.
Her phsycial therapist came on his weekend off, asked him if he does this often.. no, never. But the bond between her and Selmar (the phys therapist) is immense close, he was the one that worked tirelessly with my mom to get her to walk again in 2017-2019.
These are hard times, and I was just done paying off installments of my dad's cremation... now we have to start all over again but everyone we tried to get info wants to get paid up front and yea.. I don't exactly have thousands laying around.
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May she rest in peace my brother 🙏
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